I understand what you are feeling. We are in a similar situation. What we decided to do is bake cookies and on Christmas eve we will deliver them to our friends and family. Socially distancing outside we will give them presents and cookies just for a little bit. We are actually looking forward to taking the trip to each families house to make the delivery. Maybe you can do something similar. If you dont have family or friends in the area, maybe try some shelters you can deliver some food or drop of items they may need. For me, nothing warms my heart more than by giving and puts me in the holiday spirit. Make a fun day cooking or baking with holiday music. During this time, we have to create our own happiness Ive learned, otherwise the sadness creeps in too much.